Dear John,
Lately I have been thinking about things that I wish I wasn't. one of the most common things I keep thinking about is that fight I had with her. I miss her but I know our friendship is over for good. It just hard knowing I spent almost 5 years of my time with her and now what do I have to show for it?
A few photos and a bunch of horrible memories of us fighting but in all those memories there are a few good ones.
Like the time she was moving into her place and it was just her and I in her empty living room with just a TV. And instead of turning the TV on we just sat there talking about our future. After a while we turned some music on and danced around laughing. That nightade everything bad that ever happen disappear for a few moments like everything was okay.
Or the time she had mono and I still came over every day and we just sat in a room watching movies and talking about boys and school. There was no fighting, no trust issues.
I remember when she first moved back down we would go to the mall and she would wear these horrible purple jeans that at the time I thought were the most coolest jeans ever. At the beginning everything seemed amazing I miss the old her. In a way she will always be a big part of my life. I miss the thirteen year old us and I can't believe our friendship is finally over. Apart of me is scared because I dont have her there anymore but another part of me, and I say this not meaning to be rude is so god damn relieved she is finally gone.
I guess the fortune teller was wrong we aren't soul sisters and never again will be.
